Patience is not my thing...

Thank you ladies for your congrats! You are always there for me.

So, I called the OB (a new one from last time), and they don't want to see me until I am 10 weeks! AHHH! That is 5 more weeks from now. How will I survive that? I'm trying to go with the flow, but it is hard not knowing what is going on. I just pray everything is okay.

Evidently I now am an the "fertile" category and I will absolutely never feel fertile. Aww, to be blissfully unaware! I just recently had a "social network" friend announce on said site that she was pregnant right after she took the test. Really? I mean, good for her, I guess. It would be nice to be so sure. Other then my mom and you ladies, nobody is going to know until after my appointment at the earliest.

I hate this beginning stage where you don't really feel pregnant and you certainly don't look it. It's so hard not to be nervous. I'm feeling a bit bloated and just slightly nauseated. I guess I'll cling to that for now. And half a dozen pee sticks.


On the Mama front, my little girl still nurses all night long. We started co-sleeping at 4 months when I was literally getting up 10+ times a night. Now I am desperate to night wean her and get her into her crib. I don't believe it cry it out. Any suggestions? I am so desperately sleep deprived.


Miss X

A Year Later

***If you are in the IF trenches and having a tough day, please note there is potentially sensitive news below***

Wow! It has been almost a year since I last posted. I am certain that no one checks this anymore. I have been busy with all things baby and mothering. It has been a whirlwind year and I have loved being a Mama to my little girl. I can't believe she is almost a year old!

My "baby" started walking at 8 1/2 months! (!!!) She loves music and dancing. Loves her dogs. She is starting to talk. Right now she can say, "Mama", "Dada", "Dog", "Eyes", "No", "Uh-Oh" and sometimes mimics a few others. She is so sweet and funny. She STILL doesn't even come close to sleeping through the night and I adore her. :)

This last Thursday something happened that I would have never been able to imagine. Not even in my wildest dreams. I'm stunned. Stunned! I got a surprise + pg test!

Without giving massive TMI, this has got to be a one in a million shot. I'm shocked. (Did I mention that?). It happened in exactly the kind of way that would have so pissed me off back in my IF days if I heard someone got "surprise" pg. I am shocked, humbled and thrilled. Of course I am also scared. I wouldn't be me if I wasn't. I haven't seen or called a Dr. yet. I think I'm a day or two from being 5 weeks so I have a long way to go. I pray that everything works out.

Can you believe it? I am just so shocked (I know, I know)! I really, really want this! If you pray and wouldn't mind sending one up for me I would appreciate it. God is good.

I hope to post more often. I would love to chronicle this pg too. (How's that for being positive?) I hope everyone out there is well. We've missed you.


Miss X