Tagged!

I've been tagged by Safire. I was supposed to name 7 random things about myself. Here we go....

1- I have a shoe issue. I LOVE shoes. It's a bit ridiculous, but I can't help it. They are fabulous! I am not super into clothes at all. What can I say, shoes always fit. 'Nuff said.

2- I'm a vegetarian. I have been since I was a little girl. I even did the strict vegan thing for almost 2 years in my early 20's but I couldn't stick with it. I love cheese way to much! :)

3- My favorite books of all time are the Chronicles of Narnia. I first read them in the 3rd grade and have read them so many times I couldn't began to count. I even have the entire collection on cd and I listen to them when I go on road trips. The stories are so special to me. I can't wait to share them with my children.

4- I have an obscene amount of drug allergies and the only over the counter pain med I can take is Tylenol. The rest will kill me. Such drama.

5- I am the world's worse procrastonator. I'd give some examples, but I'll have to do it later. :)

6- Both of my dogs have their own silly songs I have made up about them and they each know which one is theirs. Hahaha

7- The first time I went to a "public" school was in college. Private schools my whole life.

Okay, so for the rules:

* Link to the person who tagged you
* Post the rules on your blog
* Write 7 random things about yourself
* Tag 7 people at the end of your post and link to them
* Let each person know they've been tagged

I tag:
Kristy
Brandy
Amanda
Kate
Deanna
Katie
And ummm..anyone else you wants?

Green Zombie

***Please Note***
I am absolutely thrilled to be pg, but this post is going to sound a little whiny. If you are struggling with infertility you might want to skip this post. I know how annoying it was to hear pg women complain about symptoms and I would never want to hurt anybody.


I am so ready for the 2nd trimester! I know I should be enjoying every second and in some ways I am, but I just feel so lousy! I feel kind of stupid because I never knew how uncomfortable being pregnant could be. Clearly it is worth every amount of pain, but color me ignorant. I just had no idea!

My weight is officially down about 6 pounds from when I got pg. I am having the hardest time eating. All day sickness has definitely kicked in. I have not thrown up, I just want to. I (tmi) belch about 200+ times a day. It is disgusting! I just feel so bloated and my tummy is constantly churning. Finding something I can force down is a real challenge. I'm finding I can only eat something once and then I hate it after that. I am running out of options!

The other big complaint is that all of my energy has been completely sucked dry! I am a walking zombie. I feel like I haven't slept in ages, when I sleep all the time! I pretty much never wake up. It is effort to take a shower and get dressed. Thank God I'm not working. I'm sure it doesn't help my energy levels that I'm not eating.

I think it gets so frustrating because I can't see any evidence of this baby. I don't look pregnant, I can't feel the baby. I sometimes wonder if I've dreamed the whole thing up. I just have to keep believing and have faith.

Somebody tell me the 2nd trimester is easier? And please forgive my whining. I feel like an ungrateful shrew! I swear this baby means everything and I would suffer anything for him/her.


Miss X

Joy comes in the morning...EDITED

"..Weeping may last for a night, but joy comes in the morning." Psalms 30:5

That verse holds a special place in my heart. After the infertility/divorce debacle and the untimely death of my dad this verse is one a clung to for hope. I had to believe that my joy would come in the morning. When I met and married my sweet, sweet hubby the verse became so real in my life. Today my joy overflows.

Excuse the picture of a picture. The quality sucks. If you look at the bottom of the black circle you will see a tiny white blob. That is our Peanut. Measuring two days ahead and we saw the heart beating! I am feeling very blessed as I know it is very normal to not be able to see the heart at this point. Plus the doctor said that it was a very old and weaker ultrasound machine and wasn't sure we would see anything.

I'm in shock! But so, so happy. There really is a baby inside me. Wow. Just. Wow. Thank you so much for praying for me. I really needed to see things going so well.

As for the rest of the appointment we went over health history, want to do/not do, eat/not eat, they gave me hospital registration forms (Already?!?!), I peed in a cup, had a pap, had lots of blood drawn, scheduled my "big" ultrasound (Though we are not going to find out the gender) and talk to the billing people about how my insurance would pay. All in all quite productive and I am so glad Hubby was able to go. He loved watching the ultrasound and he asked the doctor plenty of questions. He is so cute.

So here we go. I might actually get a baby out of this! Oh my gosh!


EDITED:
A few of you pointed out I forgot to mention my due date. Oops! According to ovulation it is September 7th, according to the doctors old fashioned pregnancy wheel it is September 8th, according to the measuring of the baby it is September 5th! So, right around there I guess. I am sticking with the 7th for now. :)


Miss X

Tomorrow, Tomorrow

My first appointment is tomorrow morning! I am excited and very nervous! I can't believe this is happening! I'm so afraid they are going to tell me that there is no baby or something awful. I actually don't even know if they are doing an ultrasound tomorrow, but I really hope so.

I'm so nervous! I kind of feel like a little kid playing dress up. Almost feel like they will tell me to go home or something. It is silly. I'm nervous they are going to tell me I'm too fat. UGH! I haven't gained an ounce since I got pg because I am really watching it, but I am definitely a good 25-30lbs overweight. I guess I don't really care if the pregnancy is alright.

I'm just a bundle of excitement and nerves! I can't express coherent thoughts. This makes it all so much more real.

I will make sure to post as soon as I can tomorrow to update you all on the appointment. If you pray, please, please pray. If not, please send me some good thoughts.


Miss X

To good to not share...

Have you ever seen such a line? I think it deserves a holiday or reward or something.
Click on it to bask fully in the thick, pink awesomeness!




I am feeling so blessed.


Miss X

Gotta love it...

...when the test line on your hpt is much darker then the control line and comes up the second the urine passes over the test.

I'm starting to think this might really be happening.


P.S.
Thank you so much ladies for answering all my questions. You all have really helped eased my mind!


Miss X

P*anty Checker

I probably run to the bathroom 12+ times a day with the sole purpose of checking my underwear. So far, still white. This is so nerve-racking! I am praying for morning sickness! I know, I know. I may come to regret that, but I hate feeling so normal. It freaks me out.

I am 4 weeks and 4 days today. My bre*asts are sore, but not as sore as they were - that makes me nervous! I'm a bit gassy and I have fatigue. That is pretty much it. What I wouldn't give to throw up. Someone tell me this is normal and doesn't mean anything scary.

Also, for those of you who have "been there, done that", what should I expect at my first doc visit? I received a TON of paperwork in the mail that I have been filling out and the letter they sent me said to expect my appointment to last up to 2 hours. Wow. What in the world will they be doing?

I am so grateful to be pregnant (I feel like a fraud typing that), but I just don't know what to do with myself. I wish I could just know that everything is going to be alright. I really want to think that pregnancy will equal baby. Could I really have a baby this Labor Day? Please God, please.


Miss X