You would think I could update a little more then this! I don't know how the mommy bloggers do it. I can barely get in on the computer anymore for more then two minutes at a time. I do almost all my checking on my phone now and blogger won't let me post from there. :-p Blah, blah, blah, excuse, excuse. Suffice to say, I suck.
On the pregnancy front everything is fine and dandy. I will be 14 weeks (!) tomorrow. We had our NT scan and everything has come back with very high odds of things being perfect and normal. Yay! I still haven't wrapped my brain around this really happening again, but am hopeful that everything is going to work out great.
I have a new OB from my last pg and it is going SO much better! Wish I would have gone to him the first time around. I still have blood pressure issues (turns out it is chronic, not pregnancy related), but I am on a pg friendly dose of meds and my blood pressure is now a lovely 100/60. Yay!
In other news my little girl is now 13 1/2 months! My gosh how time flies! She is becoming such a little person. More words every day. She is sweet and charming, along with her share of tantrums thrown in the mix. She is my little angel.
I think in my last post I talked about night weaning? We ended up having some major breastfeeding problems. I don't know if it was from being pg, her teeth, or a combo of both, but I ended up with massive, deep sores on my n*pples. So as of last Friday morning she is officially fully weaned. She still wants to nurse at night, but it is getting better and I think she is starting to understand that we don't do that anymore. I have such mixed feelings. I know it needed to happen. I was in so much pain. Still, it makes me sad to not have that bonding time with her anymore. Sigh.
That's all for now. I will TRY to post updates more often.
Miss X
Monday, October 11, 2010
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Patience is not my thing...
Thank you ladies for your congrats! You are always there for me.
So, I called the OB (a new one from last time), and they don't want to see me until I am 10 weeks! AHHH! That is 5 more weeks from now. How will I survive that? I'm trying to go with the flow, but it is hard not knowing what is going on. I just pray everything is okay.
Evidently I now am an the "fertile" category and I will absolutely never feel fertile. Aww, to be blissfully unaware! I just recently had a "social network" friend announce on said site that she was pregnant right after she took the test. Really? I mean, good for her, I guess. It would be nice to be so sure. Other then my mom and you ladies, nobody is going to know until after my appointment at the earliest.
I hate this beginning stage where you don't really feel pregnant and you certainly don't look it. It's so hard not to be nervous. I'm feeling a bit bloated and just slightly nauseated. I guess I'll cling to that for now. And half a dozen pee sticks.
On the Mama front, my little girl still nurses all night long. We started co-sleeping at 4 months when I was literally getting up 10+ times a night. Now I am desperate to night wean her and get her into her crib. I don't believe it cry it out. Any suggestions? I am so desperately sleep deprived.
Miss X
So, I called the OB (a new one from last time), and they don't want to see me until I am 10 weeks! AHHH! That is 5 more weeks from now. How will I survive that? I'm trying to go with the flow, but it is hard not knowing what is going on. I just pray everything is okay.
Evidently I now am an the "fertile" category and I will absolutely never feel fertile. Aww, to be blissfully unaware! I just recently had a "social network" friend announce on said site that she was pregnant right after she took the test. Really? I mean, good for her, I guess. It would be nice to be so sure. Other then my mom and you ladies, nobody is going to know until after my appointment at the earliest.
I hate this beginning stage where you don't really feel pregnant and you certainly don't look it. It's so hard not to be nervous. I'm feeling a bit bloated and just slightly nauseated. I guess I'll cling to that for now. And half a dozen pee sticks.
On the Mama front, my little girl still nurses all night long. We started co-sleeping at 4 months when I was literally getting up 10+ times a night. Now I am desperate to night wean her and get her into her crib. I don't believe it cry it out. Any suggestions? I am so desperately sleep deprived.
Miss X
Monday, August 9, 2010
A Year Later
***If you are in the IF trenches and having a tough day, please note there is potentially sensitive news below***
Wow! It has been almost a year since I last posted. I am certain that no one checks this anymore. I have been busy with all things baby and mothering. It has been a whirlwind year and I have loved being a Mama to my little girl. I can't believe she is almost a year old!
My "baby" started walking at 8 1/2 months! (!!!) She loves music and dancing. Loves her dogs. She is starting to talk. Right now she can say, "Mama", "Dada", "Dog", "Eyes", "No", "Uh-Oh" and sometimes mimics a few others. She is so sweet and funny. She STILL doesn't even come close to sleeping through the night and I adore her. :)
This last Thursday something happened that I would have never been able to imagine. Not even in my wildest dreams. I'm stunned. Stunned! I got a surprise + pg test!
Without giving massive TMI, this has got to be a one in a million shot. I'm shocked. (Did I mention that?). It happened in exactly the kind of way that would have so pissed me off back in my IF days if I heard someone got "surprise" pg. I am shocked, humbled and thrilled. Of course I am also scared. I wouldn't be me if I wasn't. I haven't seen or called a Dr. yet. I think I'm a day or two from being 5 weeks so I have a long way to go. I pray that everything works out.
Can you believe it? I am just so shocked (I know, I know)! I really, really want this! If you pray and wouldn't mind sending one up for me I would appreciate it. God is good.
I hope to post more often. I would love to chronicle this pg too. (How's that for being positive?) I hope everyone out there is well. We've missed you.
Miss X
Wow! It has been almost a year since I last posted. I am certain that no one checks this anymore. I have been busy with all things baby and mothering. It has been a whirlwind year and I have loved being a Mama to my little girl. I can't believe she is almost a year old!
My "baby" started walking at 8 1/2 months! (!!!) She loves music and dancing. Loves her dogs. She is starting to talk. Right now she can say, "Mama", "Dada", "Dog", "Eyes", "No", "Uh-Oh" and sometimes mimics a few others. She is so sweet and funny. She STILL doesn't even come close to sleeping through the night and I adore her. :)
This last Thursday something happened that I would have never been able to imagine. Not even in my wildest dreams. I'm stunned. Stunned! I got a surprise + pg test!
Without giving massive TMI, this has got to be a one in a million shot. I'm shocked. (Did I mention that?). It happened in exactly the kind of way that would have so pissed me off back in my IF days if I heard someone got "surprise" pg. I am shocked, humbled and thrilled. Of course I am also scared. I wouldn't be me if I wasn't. I haven't seen or called a Dr. yet. I think I'm a day or two from being 5 weeks so I have a long way to go. I pray that everything works out.
Can you believe it? I am just so shocked (I know, I know)! I really, really want this! If you pray and wouldn't mind sending one up for me I would appreciate it. God is good.
I hope to post more often. I would love to chronicle this pg too. (How's that for being positive?) I hope everyone out there is well. We've missed you.
Miss X
Thursday, September 10, 2009
Birth Story
I went to my 38 week doctors appointment on Monday August 24th. Well my bp was up at the appointment 160/100. The dr then checked my cervix and there was still NO change. Totally long and hard. Unfortunately the EPO never worked for me. My dr. told me she was inducing me that night with cytotex on my cervix and pitocin after that. She wouldn't even let me go home first. I was really upset, but what can you do?
At the hospital they checked me and dh into a room and placed the cytotec. They hooked me up to continuous monitoring (didn't want that), but it is a requirement of the med. Within an hour of the pill I was having contractions 1+min long and 3 min or less a part. I had those all night long. The next morning they checked me and I was barely a fingertip dilated! It was so upsetting after laboring for so long. They were shocked! The dr came in and hooked me to pitocin and quickly had it all the way cranked up. My contractions became INSANE! They were back to back with many in a row without coming down. 5 hours later the dr. came in and checked me - only 1cm! She broke my water which was excruciating be only 1 cm dilated. I can't get over how stupid I think that was to do. They all felt so, so bad for me.
Oh! Forgot to mention that I threw up over 50 times in my labor. At the end I was throwing up stomach acid and blood.
After around 20 hours of labor I couldn't take it and they begged me to get an epidural. I had really not wanted this, but I was so exhausted. Well that started my epidural nightmare. I have scoliosis and it ended up being a huge problem. Long story short they attempted to place an epidural 7 times! I have marks all over my back from the needle insertions. This all happened over several hours where I honestly thought I might die. The hospital anesthesiologists (sp?) and my dr. had several consults about me and trying to figure out what to do. None of the epidurals would stay in my back. Finally the last one took and gave me some relief for about 3'ish hours before it came out too. At this point I was blacking out between contractions. I was only 4 cm dilated and they were starting to talk c-section. They left for 2 hours and came back and I was 9 1/2 - 10cm.
I pushed for an hour while blacking out between contractions. I was delirious and several times didn't know where I was. I ended up getting an episiotomy (not happy about that) AND getting 2nd degree tears in multiple spots. Finally my little one was born.
Now the good part. She was placed straight on my chest and her apgars were 9 and 9. She only cried for one second and then was staring and so alert! I started bawling. It was so surreal. She was so worth every ounce of torture! We started breastfeeding right away and we are doing awesome with it. The cord was able to stop pulsing and then my amazing husband was able to cut the cord. They did her checking on my chest and didn't weigh her or measure her until I said they could. She was 6lbs 1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long with a 13 inch head. She is a tiny pixie. She was 5lbs 11 oz when we left the hospital.
My husband was amazing through the whole thing. I feel so bad for him because it seriously traumatized him. Poor guy stayed strong for me, but it was all he could do not to lose it. I think I'm going to have to do some smooth talking to convince him to have baby number two. I'm sure he will come around, but right now he thinks I was tortured to death. Poor guy.
Thanks if you go through this whole long story! So yeah, it was a nightmare situation with over 27 hours of labor. We were the talk of the hospital. But in the end I was able to get my healthy baby girl and that makes it so worth it! Oh and my very first bp reading after delivery had me back to normal. YAY! Thanks for all of the e-mail's and well wishes! I can't believe I am finally a Momma. It is so amazing. I am so, so blessed.
Miss X
At the hospital they checked me and dh into a room and placed the cytotec. They hooked me up to continuous monitoring (didn't want that), but it is a requirement of the med. Within an hour of the pill I was having contractions 1+min long and 3 min or less a part. I had those all night long. The next morning they checked me and I was barely a fingertip dilated! It was so upsetting after laboring for so long. They were shocked! The dr came in and hooked me to pitocin and quickly had it all the way cranked up. My contractions became INSANE! They were back to back with many in a row without coming down. 5 hours later the dr. came in and checked me - only 1cm! She broke my water which was excruciating be only 1 cm dilated. I can't get over how stupid I think that was to do. They all felt so, so bad for me.
Oh! Forgot to mention that I threw up over 50 times in my labor. At the end I was throwing up stomach acid and blood.
After around 20 hours of labor I couldn't take it and they begged me to get an epidural. I had really not wanted this, but I was so exhausted. Well that started my epidural nightmare. I have scoliosis and it ended up being a huge problem. Long story short they attempted to place an epidural 7 times! I have marks all over my back from the needle insertions. This all happened over several hours where I honestly thought I might die. The hospital anesthesiologists (sp?) and my dr. had several consults about me and trying to figure out what to do. None of the epidurals would stay in my back. Finally the last one took and gave me some relief for about 3'ish hours before it came out too. At this point I was blacking out between contractions. I was only 4 cm dilated and they were starting to talk c-section. They left for 2 hours and came back and I was 9 1/2 - 10cm.
I pushed for an hour while blacking out between contractions. I was delirious and several times didn't know where I was. I ended up getting an episiotomy (not happy about that) AND getting 2nd degree tears in multiple spots. Finally my little one was born.
Now the good part. She was placed straight on my chest and her apgars were 9 and 9. She only cried for one second and then was staring and so alert! I started bawling. It was so surreal. She was so worth every ounce of torture! We started breastfeeding right away and we are doing awesome with it. The cord was able to stop pulsing and then my amazing husband was able to cut the cord. They did her checking on my chest and didn't weigh her or measure her until I said they could. She was 6lbs 1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long with a 13 inch head. She is a tiny pixie. She was 5lbs 11 oz when we left the hospital.
My husband was amazing through the whole thing. I feel so bad for him because it seriously traumatized him. Poor guy stayed strong for me, but it was all he could do not to lose it. I think I'm going to have to do some smooth talking to convince him to have baby number two. I'm sure he will come around, but right now he thinks I was tortured to death. Poor guy.
Thanks if you go through this whole long story! So yeah, it was a nightmare situation with over 27 hours of labor. We were the talk of the hospital. But in the end I was able to get my healthy baby girl and that makes it so worth it! Oh and my very first bp reading after delivery had me back to normal. YAY! Thanks for all of the e-mail's and well wishes! I can't believe I am finally a Momma. It is so amazing. I am so, so blessed.
Miss X
Saturday, August 29, 2009
She's Here!
My beautiful baby girl was born August 25th at 9:11pm. She was 6lbs 1 1/2 oz and 19 1/2 inches long. She has a head full of silky, black hair.
It was a nightmare 27 1/2 hours of labor, but worth it all. I'll update with the birth story soon. For now we are home and doing well.
I am blessed.
Miss X
It was a nightmare 27 1/2 hours of labor, but worth it all. I'll update with the birth story soon. For now we are home and doing well.
I am blessed.
Miss X
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
37 Week Appt, Day in the Hospital, and Baby Time!
Yesterday marked my 37th week! I went in first thing in the morning for my 37 week appointment. Big shocker, my blood pressure was up. My Dr. immediately starts talking about sending me downstairs to labor and delivery for non-stress tests, labs and urine tests. She said hopefully she wouldn't have to deliver me that day (!) as she would prefer to get me to 38 weeks! EEK! She finished my exam, swabbed me for GBS, and checked my cervix. Despite being on EPO (evening primrose oil) for 2 weeks I had no change. She said I was not dilated whatsoever and very hard! DANG IT! She was disappointed, but I was definitely more disappointed.
I was sent down to labor and delivery. They put me in this little room, strapped a couple of monitors to my belly and a blood pressure cuff to my arm and laid me on my side on the little bed. I had to lay there for 2 1/2 hours while they occasionally came in to take blood and what not. My tests all came back completely normal. My BP came down to normal levels when I was on my side. Blood work came back normal and urine dip came back normal. I was sent home with another 24 urine test (ugh) and I take that back this afternoon.
Despite all of my tests coming back normal, I still think my Dr. is going to insist on induction next week. She is not comfortable with my BP spikes when not laying firmly on my side. I understand, I just really wanted to avoid induction - and an unfavorable cervix is not giving me comfort. I increased my EPO last night and please pray that my cervix starts dilating!
It was so surreal laying in the bed in the L&D section of the hospital (I was in a triage room). I heard a newborn crying in the next room and it totally blew my mind. I kept wondering if I really belonged there. When one of the nurses would say something to me about me being "pregnant" or about my "baby", I had to stop myself from looking around and saying "Are you talking about ME?". I SO want this baby, but I cannot wrap my simple mind around it. Is this really happening to me? I've definitely got a case of the nerves and have been awake now since 3am.
I'm afraid of being induced. I'm afraid of something going wrong with Baby Girl. I'm afraid I haven't prepared enough and I'm going to suck as a mom. I love this baby so much, why can't I accept that she is real?
Please send your prayers ladies (and maybe slap me. ;) ). I will update as I find out more.
Miss X
I was sent down to labor and delivery. They put me in this little room, strapped a couple of monitors to my belly and a blood pressure cuff to my arm and laid me on my side on the little bed. I had to lay there for 2 1/2 hours while they occasionally came in to take blood and what not. My tests all came back completely normal. My BP came down to normal levels when I was on my side. Blood work came back normal and urine dip came back normal. I was sent home with another 24 urine test (ugh) and I take that back this afternoon.
Despite all of my tests coming back normal, I still think my Dr. is going to insist on induction next week. She is not comfortable with my BP spikes when not laying firmly on my side. I understand, I just really wanted to avoid induction - and an unfavorable cervix is not giving me comfort. I increased my EPO last night and please pray that my cervix starts dilating!
It was so surreal laying in the bed in the L&D section of the hospital (I was in a triage room). I heard a newborn crying in the next room and it totally blew my mind. I kept wondering if I really belonged there. When one of the nurses would say something to me about me being "pregnant" or about my "baby", I had to stop myself from looking around and saying "Are you talking about ME?". I SO want this baby, but I cannot wrap my simple mind around it. Is this really happening to me? I've definitely got a case of the nerves and have been awake now since 3am.
I'm afraid of being induced. I'm afraid of something going wrong with Baby Girl. I'm afraid I haven't prepared enough and I'm going to suck as a mom. I love this baby so much, why can't I accept that she is real?
Please send your prayers ladies (and maybe slap me. ;) ). I will update as I find out more.
Miss X
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Down in the dumps
I'm kind of depressed. It's this bed rest business. I really haven't left the house in 3 weeks and it is getting to me. I'm sure my hormones aren't helping matters. Ugh.
Things are gradually getting worse blood pressure wise. Even in bed rest my bp is creeping up just a bit more every couple of days. This morning all I did was toast myself a bagel and sit on the couch to eat it and my blood pressure spiked up. So now I can't even make myself a quick meal. I have to lay down at all times, except for a bathroom break.
My hubby is fabulous and taking super good care of me. He just called me and I asked him to pick up some Cherry Garcia for dinner. Yes, I do feel entitled to ice cream for dinner. ;) I'm just getting lonely being by myself all day, with nothing to really do. Whine, whine, woe is me! Pathetic! It will all be over soon and it really isn't so bad, it just feels like it at the moment.
My next appointment is Monday and I imagine induction will at least be discussed. You all know how badly I have not wanted to be induced. I'm doing my best to just accept it for what it is. I just really want my baby to be healthy and born. I have a secret fear about something terrible happening at her birth. I just want her to be okay. However that happens is fine.
Blah, blah, anyway. This is where I'm at right now. I'll post updates as I have them.
Miss X
Things are gradually getting worse blood pressure wise. Even in bed rest my bp is creeping up just a bit more every couple of days. This morning all I did was toast myself a bagel and sit on the couch to eat it and my blood pressure spiked up. So now I can't even make myself a quick meal. I have to lay down at all times, except for a bathroom break.
My hubby is fabulous and taking super good care of me. He just called me and I asked him to pick up some Cherry Garcia for dinner. Yes, I do feel entitled to ice cream for dinner. ;) I'm just getting lonely being by myself all day, with nothing to really do. Whine, whine, woe is me! Pathetic! It will all be over soon and it really isn't so bad, it just feels like it at the moment.
My next appointment is Monday and I imagine induction will at least be discussed. You all know how badly I have not wanted to be induced. I'm doing my best to just accept it for what it is. I just really want my baby to be healthy and born. I have a secret fear about something terrible happening at her birth. I just want her to be okay. However that happens is fine.
Blah, blah, anyway. This is where I'm at right now. I'll post updates as I have them.
Miss X
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