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And one month later....


It's a BOY!!!!!!

We, especially my hubby, were so surprised! He was convinced it was another girl. We are thrilled and would have been either way. Everything looked great. We are both healthy and everything is right on track. We feel very blessed.

Baby girl is becoming such a big girl. She can repeat almost everything and is just becoming such a young lady. Time is flying and we are a sea of busy and happy. The fact that it is Christmas time and we are enjoying our little girl AND the little boy growing in my tummy is amazing. My life has really come full circle.

I would like to say I will post again soon...but....yeah. I'll try to post again. At some point. :-)


Miss X

8 More Days

This pregnancy is speeding by! It's been very uneventful so far and I am very grateful for that. I'm 19 weeks tomorrow and I have the "big" ultrasound in 8 days! I can't wait to find out if it is a boy or a girl!

My pregnancy has been pretty easy. Very little morning sickness in the beginning, no weight gain, excellent blood pressure. Yay! This little one is very different from my little girl. I felt constant movement from her, starting at exactly 16 weeks and from every day after. I've only felt very slight movement a couple of times from this baby. I'm wondering if maybe I have an anterior placenta that is blocking movement? Maybe this is just a laid back baby. :-)

I AM tired, but I think that has more to do with the fact that I have a very active 14 1/2 month old. How could I not be tired? I think that is the name of the game for the next couple of years at least. Oh well, I'm lucky to be sleep deprived. :-)

I better end this before Baby Girl wakes from her nap! I'll update after my ultrasound!


Miss X

I Suck

You would think I could update a little more then this! I don't know how the mommy bloggers do it. I can barely get in on the computer anymore for more then two minutes at a time. I do almost all my checking on my phone now and blogger won't let me post from there. :-p Blah, blah, blah, excuse, excuse. Suffice to say, I suck.

On the pregnancy front everything is fine and dandy. I will be 14 weeks (!) tomorrow. We had our NT scan and everything has come back with very high odds of things being perfect and normal. Yay! I still haven't wrapped my brain around this really happening again, but am hopeful that everything is going to work out great.

I have a new OB from my last pg and it is going SO much better! Wish I would have gone to him the first time around. I still have blood pressure issues (turns out it is chronic, not pregnancy related), but I am on a pg friendly dose of meds and my blood pressure is now a lovely 100/60. Yay!

In other news my little girl is now 13 1/2 months! My gosh how time flies! She is becoming such a little person. More words every day. She is sweet and charming, along with her share of tantrums thrown in the mix. She is my little angel.

I think in my last post I talked about night weaning? We ended up having some major breastfeeding problems. I don't know if it was from being pg, her teeth, or a combo of both, but I ended up with massive, deep sores on my n*pples. So as of last Friday morning she is officially fully weaned. She still wants to nurse at night, but it is getting better and I think she is starting to understand that we don't do that anymore. I have such mixed feelings. I know it needed to happen. I was in so much pain. Still, it makes me sad to not have that bonding time with her anymore. Sigh.

That's all for now. I will TRY to post updates more often.


Miss X

Patience is not my thing...

Thank you ladies for your congrats! You are always there for me.

So, I called the OB (a new one from last time), and they don't want to see me until I am 10 weeks! AHHH! That is 5 more weeks from now. How will I survive that? I'm trying to go with the flow, but it is hard not knowing what is going on. I just pray everything is okay.

Evidently I now am an the "fertile" category and I will absolutely never feel fertile. Aww, to be blissfully unaware! I just recently had a "social network" friend announce on said site that she was pregnant right after she took the test. Really? I mean, good for her, I guess. It would be nice to be so sure. Other then my mom and you ladies, nobody is going to know until after my appointment at the earliest.

I hate this beginning stage where you don't really feel pregnant and you certainly don't look it. It's so hard not to be nervous. I'm feeling a bit bloated and just slightly nauseated. I guess I'll cling to that for now. And half a dozen pee sticks.


On the Mama front, my little girl still nurses all night long. We started co-sleeping at 4 months when I was literally getting up 10+ times a night. Now I am desperate to night wean her and get her into her crib. I don't believe it cry it out. Any suggestions? I am so desperately sleep deprived.


Miss X

A Year Later

***If you are in the IF trenches and having a tough day, please note there is potentially sensitive news below***

Wow! It has been almost a year since I last posted. I am certain that no one checks this anymore. I have been busy with all things baby and mothering. It has been a whirlwind year and I have loved being a Mama to my little girl. I can't believe she is almost a year old!

My "baby" started walking at 8 1/2 months! (!!!) She loves music and dancing. Loves her dogs. She is starting to talk. Right now she can say, "Mama", "Dada", "Dog", "Eyes", "No", "Uh-Oh" and sometimes mimics a few others. She is so sweet and funny. She STILL doesn't even come close to sleeping through the night and I adore her. :)

This last Thursday something happened that I would have never been able to imagine. Not even in my wildest dreams. I'm stunned. Stunned! I got a surprise + pg test!

Without giving massive TMI, this has got to be a one in a million shot. I'm shocked. (Did I mention that?). It happened in exactly the kind of way that would have so pissed me off back in my IF days if I heard someone got "surprise" pg. I am shocked, humbled and thrilled. Of course I am also scared. I wouldn't be me if I wasn't. I haven't seen or called a Dr. yet. I think I'm a day or two from being 5 weeks so I have a long way to go. I pray that everything works out.

Can you believe it? I am just so shocked (I know, I know)! I really, really want this! If you pray and wouldn't mind sending one up for me I would appreciate it. God is good.

I hope to post more often. I would love to chronicle this pg too. (How's that for being positive?) I hope everyone out there is well. We've missed you.


Miss X

Birth Story

I went to my 38 week doctors appointment on Monday August 24th. Well my bp was up at the appointment 160/100. The dr then checked my cervix and there was still NO change. Totally long and hard. Unfortunately the EPO never worked for me. My dr. told me she was inducing me that night with cytotex on my cervix and pitocin after that. She wouldn't even let me go home first. I was really upset, but what can you do?
At the hospital they checked me and dh into a room and placed the cytotec. They hooked me up to continuous monitoring (didn't want that), but it is a requirement of the med. Within an hour of the pill I was having contractions 1+min long and 3 min or less a part. I had those all night long. The next morning they checked me and I was barely a fingertip dilated! It was so upsetting after laboring for so long. They were shocked! The dr came in and hooked me to pitocin and quickly had it all the way cranked up. My contractions became INSANE! They were back to back with many in a row without coming down. 5 hours later the dr. came in and checked me - only 1cm! She broke my water which was excruciating be only 1 cm dilated. I can't get over how stupid I think that was to do. They all felt so, so bad for me.
Oh! Forgot to mention that I threw up over 50 times in my labor. At the end I was throwing up stomach acid and blood.
After around 20 hours of labor I couldn't take it and they begged me to get an epidural. I had really not wanted this, but I was so exhausted. Well that started my epidural nightmare. I have scoliosis and it ended up being a huge problem. Long story short they attempted to place an epidural 7 times! I have marks all over my back from the needle insertions. This all happened over several hours where I honestly thought I might die. The hospital anesthesiologists (sp?) and my dr. had several consults about me and trying to figure out what to do. None of the epidurals would stay in my back. Finally the last one took and gave me some relief for about 3'ish hours before it came out too. At this point I was blacking out between contractions. I was only 4 cm dilated and they were starting to talk c-section. They left for 2 hours and came back and I was 9 1/2 - 10cm.
I pushed for an hour while blacking out between contractions. I was delirious and several times didn't know where I was. I ended up getting an episiotomy (not happy about that) AND getting 2nd degree tears in multiple spots. Finally my little one was born.
Now the good part. She was placed straight on my chest and her apgars were 9 and 9. She only cried for one second and then was staring and so alert! I started bawling. It was so surreal. She was so worth every ounce of torture! We started breastfeeding right away and we are doing awesome with it. The cord was able to stop pulsing and then my amazing husband was able to cut the cord. They did her checking on my chest and didn't weigh her or measure her until I said they could. She was 6lbs 1 oz and 19 1/2 inches long with a 13 inch head. She is a tiny pixie. She was 5lbs 11 oz when we left the hospital.

My husband was amazing through the whole thing. I feel so bad for him because it seriously traumatized him. Poor guy stayed strong for me, but it was all he could do not to lose it. I think I'm going to have to do some smooth talking to convince him to have baby number two. I'm sure he will come around, but right now he thinks I was tortured to death. Poor guy.

Thanks if you go through this whole long story! So yeah, it was a nightmare situation with over 27 hours of labor. We were the talk of the hospital. But in the end I was able to get my healthy baby girl and that makes it so worth it! Oh and my very first bp reading after delivery had me back to normal. YAY! Thanks for all of the e-mail's and well wishes! I can't believe I am finally a Momma. It is so amazing. I am so, so blessed.


Miss X

She's Here!

My beautiful baby girl was born August 25th at 9:11pm. She was 6lbs 1 1/2 oz and 19 1/2 inches long. She has a head full of silky, black hair.

It was a nightmare 27 1/2 hours of labor, but worth it all. I'll update with the birth story soon. For now we are home and doing well.

I am blessed.


Miss X