Saturday, August 29, 2009

She's Here!

My beautiful baby girl was born August 25th at 9:11pm. She was 6lbs 1 1/2 oz and 19 1/2 inches long. She has a head full of silky, black hair.

It was a nightmare 27 1/2 hours of labor, but worth it all. I'll update with the birth story soon. For now we are home and doing well.

I am blessed.


Miss X

Tuesday, August 18, 2009

37 Week Appt, Day in the Hospital, and Baby Time!

Yesterday marked my 37th week! I went in first thing in the morning for my 37 week appointment. Big shocker, my blood pressure was up. My Dr. immediately starts talking about sending me downstairs to labor and delivery for non-stress tests, labs and urine tests. She said hopefully she wouldn't have to deliver me that day (!) as she would prefer to get me to 38 weeks! EEK! She finished my exam, swabbed me for GBS, and checked my cervix. Despite being on EPO (evening primrose oil) for 2 weeks I had no change. She said I was not dilated whatsoever and very hard! DANG IT! She was disappointed, but I was definitely more disappointed.

I was sent down to labor and delivery. They put me in this little room, strapped a couple of monitors to my belly and a blood pressure cuff to my arm and laid me on my side on the little bed. I had to lay there for 2 1/2 hours while they occasionally came in to take blood and what not. My tests all came back completely normal. My BP came down to normal levels when I was on my side. Blood work came back normal and urine dip came back normal. I was sent home with another 24 urine test (ugh) and I take that back this afternoon.

Despite all of my tests coming back normal, I still think my Dr. is going to insist on induction next week. She is not comfortable with my BP spikes when not laying firmly on my side. I understand, I just really wanted to avoid induction - and an unfavorable cervix is not giving me comfort. I increased my EPO last night and please pray that my cervix starts dilating!

It was so surreal laying in the bed in the L&D section of the hospital (I was in a triage room). I heard a newborn crying in the next room and it totally blew my mind. I kept wondering if I really belonged there. When one of the nurses would say something to me about me being "pregnant" or about my "baby", I had to stop myself from looking around and saying "Are you talking about ME?". I SO want this baby, but I cannot wrap my simple mind around it. Is this really happening to me? I've definitely got a case of the nerves and have been awake now since 3am.

I'm afraid of being induced. I'm afraid of something going wrong with Baby Girl. I'm afraid I haven't prepared enough and I'm going to suck as a mom. I love this baby so much, why can't I accept that she is real?

Please send your prayers ladies (and maybe slap me. ;) ). I will update as I find out more.


Miss X

Tuesday, August 11, 2009

Down in the dumps

I'm kind of depressed. It's this bed rest business. I really haven't left the house in 3 weeks and it is getting to me. I'm sure my hormones aren't helping matters. Ugh.

Things are gradually getting worse blood pressure wise. Even in bed rest my bp is creeping up just a bit more every couple of days. This morning all I did was toast myself a bagel and sit on the couch to eat it and my blood pressure spiked up. So now I can't even make myself a quick meal. I have to lay down at all times, except for a bathroom break.

My hubby is fabulous and taking super good care of me. He just called me and I asked him to pick up some Cherry Garcia for dinner. Yes, I do feel entitled to ice cream for dinner. ;) I'm just getting lonely being by myself all day, with nothing to really do. Whine, whine, woe is me! Pathetic! It will all be over soon and it really isn't so bad, it just feels like it at the moment.

My next appointment is Monday and I imagine induction will at least be discussed. You all know how badly I have not wanted to be induced. I'm doing my best to just accept it for what it is. I just really want my baby to be healthy and born. I have a secret fear about something terrible happening at her birth. I just want her to be okay. However that happens is fine.

Blah, blah, anyway. This is where I'm at right now. I'll post updates as I have them.


Miss X

Sunday, August 9, 2009

36 Week Belly Pic!

See the newest pic here.

Big change this time! :)



Miss X

Monday, August 3, 2009

Stable and Grateful

35 week appointment today. My BP is still somewhat elevated though not too high, but it is stable. No protein in my urine and no signs of Pre-E. All very good news. I brought in my daily bp readings from home and I think I finally proved to them that my BP is much, much worse at the office because of my stupid White Coats Syndrome. Belly is measuring right on to the day. Baby Girl's heartbeat is perfect. Weight down 1lb from last appointment (probably due to being on bed rest and loosing the excess swelling fluid). I was declared "doing a great job and to keep it up!".

Yay! I don't have to go back for another 2 weeks and at that point I will be officially full term! I just have to keep up the rest and continue recording my blood pressure at home to take in to my appointments. YIPPIE! At that point I will be on weekly appointments until the end. They will also do my Group B Strep test and my first internal to check for progress.

My family and friends have been fabulous. I can't even tell you how many breakfasts and lunches they have brought to me. My mom, grandma and bff came last week and organized all of my baby shower gifts, did the last of my baby laundry and finished off my nursery. I was bummed to not be able to do it myself, but so grateful that I had the help since I can't. My mom has ran errands for me to get the last of the stuff I still needed and she is taking my car to the fire department this week to have my car seat installed. My hubby has been waiting on me hand and foot. I'm really blessed.

I'm getting excited and just a wee bit nervous! I can't believe this is all happening so soon! How is this happening? I'm just in such disbelief! Has there really been a baby inside of me all of these months? Wow! My mind is totally blown.

Thanks for all of your well wishes and prayers. I'll keep you updated. :)


Miss X